Just dont go there honey...

Was that a look of regret?
I saw cowering in you cold blue eyes?

Good.

But somehow I doubt it.
Was it just a cold lust?
Needing, wanting, searching,
To be close to someone.
Anyone.
And guess what?

‘ding, ding, ding’

I’m the lucky winner of today.
Well how do I feel now?
Well how do you expect me to feel?
Jumping in joy?
Grateful, honoured, delighted?
To be chosen, by you?
For the third time?
Was everyone else busy?
No one with short enough skirt
Sniffing at your ankles?
Did you think that;
I forgave you once,
I’d do it again?
                     And again?
Just be there whenever you need someone?

Lets go over what happened,
The facts,
Go on, think it through.
Remember?
And after all that,
You still expect me to be here?

I’m not that stupid, ignorant, needing,
Little girl anymore,
And I have you to thank for that.
I’ve learnt a lot.
                I had to.
And no, I wont drop everything,
For your majesty.
And no, I’m not desperate, unlike you.
What kind of gullible fool do you take me for?
Second chances? Excusable.
But the third? Then the fourth?
I must have ‘mug’ written all over me.
Well guess what?
You blew it honey.
Go sing yourself a sad song.
It’s not a nice feeling is it?

Thinking back,
Maybe that was a look of regret in your eyes,
Maybe because you suddenly realised,
That I am everything you’ll never get back.
And it’s all your fault.